… ahahahaha! i *heart* this!
I was with my son’s dad for 15 years… married for 11… then a few experiences after our split. That’s more than half my life with another person. And believe me, I’ve been on this planet much longer than many people believe, which means I’ve had a LOT of time with someone else. 🙂
I guess I’m at a selfish/self protective place right now. I REALLY like not being in an exclusive relationship and not having to step on egg shells and questioning who he’s texting or sneaking off with (OMG I still *shudder* over thoughts like that). I also know that the “right” person would dare not pull crap like that on me or my son… but right now, I like feeling free, mentally & emotionally. I can finally focus on myself, my son, and people who need me the most, and having gone through several posts on a few, popular “mommy groups” reminded me of stuff that I certainly can do WITHOUT.
I *do* miss belonging to someone tho… not as in “property” but as “partner in life”. Someone who is in love with only me… have dreams of a future with me in it… *sigh*. I remember very clearly how it feels to be in a loving & secure relationship. It was amazing while it lasted and I would LOVE to have that again if it’s part of God’s plan for me.
But for now… I love where I am, and I love my little world… and for someone to claim a place in my life (as in a serious relationship), that person would have to be walking the same path that I am and be able to add to (not constantly suck the life out of) my story.
I’ve done the long term committed relationship thing and the let’s get to know each other thing… and as much as I believe there’s someone for everyone, I think I’ll be totally OK whether I connect with another person at that level or not… because even if I remain single in my relationship status, I will never be alone.
P.S. Lemme know what you think!